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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

THIS is why I feel like an old mommy!

Avrie is the only child at home during the day and she is bored stiff! She kept asking "when am I going to school" and I would say "when you're 5." But then... she discovered that her 4 year old friends were going to school.. so my answer wasn't good enough any more. I knew the library had story time.... but I thought it was only one day a week. It turns out, much to my pleasure, that they hold it 4 days a week for an hour each day! YAY!!! So now we have Avries "school" 4 days a week and she has a blast! They read stories, sing songs and do crafts.

Here lies the problem. The other mommies are these adorable size 2 young chicks and I feel like I look like Avires Grandmother! What makes me sad is that I realized.. I am the "old mother"! My poor daughter is going to go to school and the kids will say "how old is your mom" and the answers will be "24 or 26 or maybe even 34" but then the kids will hear a quiet little "44". ACK! Poor Avrie... she has to deal with an overweight AND old mom! Oh well... I guess I just better figure out how to be the awesome fun mom that the other kids will love despite the size and age differences with their own moms!

Monday, August 25, 2008

Love Notes




Here it is... one of the sections I wanted to start. It may not remain here... but it will exist from this point forward.

I think all of us are so incredibly blessed... and don't even always notice it. I call those little things that happen to us each day, that make us smile "Love Notes." I have decided that it would do me good to start appreciating Heavenly Father's Love Notes to me and to publicly thank Him for all that I have. I would like to keep a record for myself... so that I can look back on this and be inspired... as often as possible. I have so much... and do you know what? So do you. So please, feel free to add your own "Love Notes" in the comments section. If I can, I'll copy it onto my blog so that all can be uplifted from your expressions of gratitude.

Today... I realized that getting older is okay. For right now I feel peace about where I'm at in life. That is HUGE for me. I have an ongoing struggle about this different phase in my life... but for a little while... I am content. I also woke up to a clean kitchen. I still don't know who did it, but I am grateful. My kitchen is the one place I want to be clean the most and to have someone else take care of it means that they know its important to me and that sent a sweet message to me. I feel very loved and appreciated because of my birthday yesterday. No one had money and so they all thought out of the box and still found a way to make me feel loved and appreciated. We have had some serious financial stresses in the last while. Today, while we did get a check, it did not begin to cover what we needed. But for some reason... I woke up feeling peaceful about it. We've been broke before, we don't know how we'll make it.. and then we do. This peaceful feeling I woke up with tells me that yes... all will be okay and once again... we'll make it. I have so much. I have a comfortable home, I have a loving husband, I have a working vehicle, I have 9 beautiful children and an awesome son in law, I have good friends who set good examples, I have parents who love me and lead me, I have a calling and 6 Beehives that I adore, I have a healthy body in spite of myself, I have online "Women of Destiny" friends that support me... advise me... laugh with me (or is that AT me).. play games with me (and I think let me win sometimes to make me feel good), give good ideas to me, and allow me to sorrow and celebrate with them. I also belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.... with all of those blessings... what else could a person possibly dream of wanting? I don't even know how Heavenly Father can be so creative in sending me new Love Notes every day.... after all... I have SOOOO much! Yet... He does. He loves me and He shows it.

Blogs

I'm trying to figure all of this technical stuff out. I just plain old don't get some of it. For instance... I want to start a section called "Love Notes" that always stays to the right with it's own entries. And another one called "Personal Progress". I have no clue how to do any of that! Another thing I want to do is to keep my first post at the top... because it has a description of my family members. Is there another place I can put that so that it's always visible? If there are any blogging geniouses out there... please comment. OH YEA! That leads me to another "how to". I noticed that the "comments" section at the bottom of each post is in white and not even noticeable. How in the heck do I change that?!

Okay. I'm done ranting. I suppose I'll just have to fiddle around to figure it out like the rest of the awesome bloggers out there!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Our Newest Addition!




So. The first entry was about my 9 children... but what I didn't tell you is that since Avrie, we've added one more child to our family. Another son.

His name is Matt Winder and married our daughter Morgan in the Las Vegas Temple on April 19, 2008. He has been an incredible blessing to our family. He loves and appreciates our daughter and even though he was raised in an all boy home... he somehow knows how to handle her.... eh hem... femaleness - those ever too familiar monthly moods that she has inherited from her mother. He has a strong testimony of the gospel and I know he will lead his family in righteousness. And.... to top it all off, he's pretty darn good looking so I know I will get the most beautiful and handsome grandbabies!




The Beginning

Well... we'll see if I can keep up with this! I'm excited for the opportunity to keep a journal that family and friends are welcome to peek in on.


I guess I'll just start off with the basics. My first child Morgan, was born to me on August 29th, 1984. This beautiful surprise changed my life and I will eternally be grateful for the change in the direction of my life that it took me. Morgan was an example to me from the second she was born and continues to set an example each day she lives ... I'm sure she has a soul that is much older and wiser than mine! I married David on June 6th 1987. We have had a marriage with all of the ups and downs that most of us have had... but 21 years later we're still hanging in there. The next little "bundle of joy" that we were surprised with was our feisty little Lauren. She came into this world on January 17, 1988 with fire and continues to live her life full of .... fire! As much as I love the independence and oomph and humor that her personality has... I'm also beginning to see some softness and maturity settle in... and it's an incredible and beautiful metamorphosis to witness! On September 11, 1989 our one and only little man came to us. He is funny, impulsive, loyal, loving, a free spirit, sensitive (most of the time), talented, intelligent and very handsome. I am so grateful for his patience in living in a house of hormones and for the tenderness he shows me. He will certainly make a wonderful husband... that is very aware of female needs... when he gets through this tumultuous time in his life. I guess there are those of us that feel the need to make our own mistakes and "taste" life before we make our decisions rather than making the decisions first. He is definately a kindred spirit to his mother! I suffered several miscarriages between Jordan and our next child... so when Breanne was born to us we were ecstatic! She was born on December 10th 1992 quickly and without a lot of pain for me. I thought it was because of the losses we had suffered that we felt so happy... it turns out it was because of her sweet, yet tough personality. She was my first baby that didn't cry much, she was my first baby to sleep through the night from 3 weeks on, and she was my first baby that seemed truly "content" from the minute she arrived. To this day she seems to be able to bounce back from trials with a smile on her face and a forgiving heart. Our beautiful and loveable "Kammy T" was born to us on November 16th, 1994. Little Kamrynn was gifted with the most beautiful big brown eyes and head full of curly hair. She has lived her life thus far in complete obedience both to her parents and to the gospel. She is trusting and forgiving and kind. I feel sad for her lack of confidence and want to help her see what a gift she is... but I think it's going to take experience for her to finally discover that. Our next blessing came to us on September 12th, 1996... only 10 hours after her cousin (who was able to be there at her birth). Madison was another gentle and sweet baby. We discovered early on that she had a lot of fears and had a tender heart that is hurt easily. She is quiet and it would horrify her to know that she had ever caused difficulties for anyone (she really hasn't though). She has taken on the role of the child that would rather glide through life unnoticed than to ever make waves. Some day I would like to see her laugh with sheer joy... or act silly... or defend herself without fear. She has an incredible sense of humor and for some reason... with all of her fears... is not the slightest bit afraid to be on a stage performing. I think she's going to be our little star! The next baby we had turned out to be a miracle baby. Arryn was born on November 17, 1998... against all odds. When I was 14 weeks pregnant with her I was in a head on car accident (with 5 of the other children) and critically injured. They just knew the baby wouldn't make it and ended up life flighting me to LDS hospital. They did daily ultrasounds to watch her progression and told me that until we had a healthy baby in our arms... there were no promises. I went through X-rays, CAT Scans, had Morphine and Demerol as well as many other medications... on top of all of the physical trauma to my body. To our surprise... I carried her full term and she came to us tiny... but perfect. One "perfection" (as I like to call it) that she had was that her 2nd and 3rd toes were crossed on her right foot... exactly the way that mine are permanently stuck from the accident. That's just a little bond that she and I have reminding me of the miracle that her life is. She does have to deal with dyslexia... which may or may not be related to the trauma she experienced in-utero... but she deals with it well. She is turning out to be a confident little tiny turkey! Devyn is my next child. We were sooo thrilled to have her join our family on January 6th, 2002 and had no clue what surprised she would bring to us! She is smart, determined and strong! At 2 years old she found her way to the medicine cupboard and got the child proof lid open on a bottle of blood pressure medicine. She took the whole bottle... which we think was around 22 pills. All of that happened in a split second and almost right in front of me (I was folding laundry 10 feet away from her). In a very few minutes we found her unconscious on the floor and quickly turning pale. Arryn (who was only 5 and could not read) somehow knew exactly what pills she had taken and told me that I should be concerned. Up until that point I thought that Devyn was only sleeping. To make a long story short.... on the way to the hospital Devyn's heart stopped and her breathing stopped. They did CPR the whole way and ended up putting her in an induced coma and on life support. The doctors specifically said that she probably would not make it. Our bishop (Neil Cottom) rushed to the ER as soon as he heard the news and gave her a beautiful blessing. The instant he laid his hands on her head he told her to begin to heal. The Spirit was unbelievably strong in the room and I felt an instant peace. He went on to say that Devyn had come into this world full of determination and strength and that we would all be blessed to watch her grow up with those same characteristics. That has certainly proven to be true! After her life flight to Primary Children's hospital (where the doctors still didn't believe she'd make it) she miraculously began to recover. Within 24 hours we were on our way home again to begin a life full of laughs, frustrations and awe filled moments as we watch her continue to live full of "determination & strength." Our last little blessing was Avrie Jayne Pope. I was so sad to know that it would be my last pregnancy so I enjoyed every minute of it. I relished the labor and I actually found satisfaction in a more painful and difficult than usual (for me) delivery. Avrie was born on June 16, 2004. She is happy, content, sweet and confident. She is already into style and appearance (scary) and loves the attention that she gets as the "baby" of the family. I hope that I don't become a mother that spoils her because she's my last! I find myself not being bugged as easily and just like I did with the pregnancy and delivery... I enjoy each moment... even the frustrating ones. I don't want time to fly. I want to always have little children in my home. I adore my adult children, I feel a strong bond to my teen children, and I cherish my young children. I hope that Heaven is full of children of all ages... I hope that we get to raise our spirit children from infants to adults. I hope that we get to be pregnant and experience the thrill of the first touch and smell of a child... of the first look into their tiny eyes... and of the first bond that we feel with them, knowing that they are truly a gift to bless our lives through both challenges and JOY! Thus... the name of my blog... Joy"full"home!